What if I don’t want to get better but I know I should?
Day 19
I want to stop
i plan to kill myself this monday
I made it a week
Just got new Apple Watch
I have started a meditation practice as of yesterday after having horrible intrusive thoughts for some time now.
I need help and advice. I need all the energy and power a man can muster. I need to be brave and face more of my demons. I know what I need to do but its hard
I spent 2 days in bed deeply embroiled in the darkest most horrible intrusive thoughts and then gambled. It doesn't feel good I was one year clean from gambling. I feel weak
I am not a violent person. I do not want to hurt anyone.
I'm afriad I said something racist as a joke in a youtube chat and i regret not knowing its severity.
I did it, I made it through Christmas sober
I don't know if I'm supposed to be here
Great, too fat for an ablation
Chlomipramine or Luvox opinions. I have extremely troubling intrusive thoughts
Nicotine Withdrawals
915 days sober. I'm going to drink again when I get to 1000 days.
Day One Again
Motivation?
22 days. Idc what my flair says I’ll fix it eventually.
DUI. My life is over.
Virtual AA
Words hurt - Day 25
I’m almost 12 hours sober
I'm not ok.
