Uncommon to have an EBV reactivation (confirmed) go on for a year plus? Absolutely miserable this past year and currently :/ Please Help…

Hey guys 25 M here and I had mono in 2019 and 6 months ago tested positive Early Antigen D of 21.10 (High). It all started last February (2024) after my dog passed away. I keep flaring and can’t do activity like I used to and it’s depressing and debilitating with pain. Full body joint pain, extreme fatigue, malaise, sore throats, PEM, headaches, hot flashes, etc. I’m at the point where my depression and anxiety plus my OCD are so bad that I would rather die than go through this pain, mental anguish, etc anymore… I went from lifting daily, doing yard work, detailing cars, to now none of that… walking outside is a win for me. I am afraid that my depression will get the best of me because I have lost hope that I will feel any better. I’m just afraid I developed CFS but my PEM seems to be instant instead of delayed by a day or two idk. I’m just frustrated and no supplements, amount of sleep, diet changes, or stress reduction is helping… I just need some advice and maybe some encouragement. Thank you. 🙏