I am not “basically married”, thanks.

So I’m feeling both very ungrateful and very sad right now. I was supposed to get married this Saturday. We pushed it back a year as all our friends and family are out of state and it just wouldn’t have worked. I know I’m lucky my venue and all booked vendors were able to move to my new date but I’m incredibly sad I’m not getting married this year. We’ve been together 5 years and I really really want to be married. I feel selfish because we’re over a year into this mess and so many brides/grooms/individuals had to make tough choices but I’m just sad. Sooooooo many people this week have said to me “well you’re basically married anyway”. It is driving me insane. IF I AM BASICALLY MARRIED I WOULDN’T BE PLANNING THIS THING! Thank you for reading my rant, I had to get it out. Hopefully I’ll feel less bummed now.