I miss my old name

I’m trans and I changed my name (not officially) 3 years ago when I was 13 when I started experimenting with gender. I found one that is gender neutral and that I got really used to. It fits me and what I feel like my gender is.

But I’ve always loved the name I had before and sometimes really miss it. I don’t want to take it back because it’s very obviously female and that doesn’t fit how I feel.

Has anyone experienced something similar and maybe has some tips to deal with it?