Mri and i hate myself now

Has an mri done today for my tmj problems. I had my earplugs with me but they were rushing me so i didnt put them in and i regret it so badly now, im so stupid. They gave me over head earmuffs but they didnt really help since it was so extremely loud still. The mri was 50 minutes so i know i damaged my hearing even further. I hate myself, why couldnt i just put them in? My hearing is now muffled and i have a spike in my tinnitus. Having suicidal thoughts, i am so stupid, i cant believe it. Why didnt i just put them in?