living a miserable life is getting comfortable

this is my first time posting on reddit and it's a long post so please bear with me.

as the title says, I'm somehow not shitting bricks considering how my life is. I'm 23 and I've wasted the last 6 years doing NOTHING, 2017 is when i dropped out of highschool, my life wasn't great back then but it got worse ever since. why i dropped out you ask? maybe bullying?( it was only verbal but it still sucked) or maybe because i was completely not interested in studying, or maybe it was my addictions, there are so many reasons. you'd probably think I'm addicted to drugs or something but nope, just digital crap. Porn, video games, social media....etc. i was exposed to pornography at 10 or 11 years old and I'm still struggling with masturbation till this day, i used to love video games, in fact i wanted to become a developer and make games and shit, but here i am never had a job in my life. in fact I'm too anxious about getting a job, is it the pressure of having a boss or me being too conscious of myself? who knows. i tried changing my life and becoming better but it never sticks. the longest i did nofap for was 2 weeks. I can't do anything, i have no skills, no friends, never had a relationship. i can go on and on about how miserable my life is but I don't want anyone feeling bad for me. the thought of killing myself has crossed my mind several times in the past 6 years but I can't do it. I can't kill myself but i don't feel like I'm living either. is it the lack of purpose, motivation or discipline?

now all i do every fucking day is be on my phone all day, scrolling and scrolling. I don't even enjoy video games anymore i can't play a game for 30 mins straight without feeling the need to scroll on insta or watch porn . and it's somehow getting comfortable living this way, the sense of guilt that i had a couple years ago is now fading. i know i shouldn't be living like this and that time won't have mercy on me.

i want to be healthy again, i want to become successful, i want to get muscular, i want to have a wife and be dependable man, so much and so many things that i want to do, and i know those things need hardwork and dedication but I'm simply not taking action.

Please i need a reality check, i need to convince my mind that this not okay and that i should get up and do something, it's not okay to live like this. i don't want to die like this, because my life is nothing but regret right now and I don't want my wake up call to be a devastating event