What am I doing…..

So yesterday I hurt myself intentionally with a school compass. I won’t go into the details but It did hurt and now I did it again today. I also SH last year, can someone tell me what I’m meant to do. I feel like I don’t really matter enough to get help because there are people who need it more than me and my cuts arent really serious but I’m just stuck. I dont know what I’m meant to feel right now… I did it in the first place because I was really angry and today because i was feeling upset.

Does it even really count as SH because I feel satisfied looking at it after I’ve done it. Someone please help