I feel stupid

I spent my 20s involved in anti-war stuff and working with food not bombs type stuff (I know cringe to some of you) and generally just passionately advocating/believing in/arguing for a better world. I'm 40 now. Trump 2.0 is here and that billionaire did a nazi salute and I just feel so stupid, almost embarrassed that I wasted my youthful years when this is what was coming. Like what a cringe idiot I was. I should have just been selfish and art-focused then, as my 30s have been a slow move toward.