Where do i belong

My whole life I've been surrounded by born again Christianity and it never clicked with me but I would go through the motions. But now that I'm older and due to some events in my life I'm basically by myself now but that's off subject. With this new found freedom I've followed up on pagan beliefs and spiritualism cause this does click with me. But the core of what I personally believe is that mother nature is god. She is my goddess and is the source of all life and you can see this with your own eyes. But with this I do believe in land spirits and house spirits cause I interact with my house spirit daily and burn candles and incense for them. So I've been going along with this for awhile but I cant shake the fact that there's something calling me. Like I've said before I belive nature is the all mother. I can answer more questions about my actual belief system but as of now I feel lost but I know this is my truth. So I ask if anyone can give me a little guidance or direction it would be greatly appreciated cause I have no one by me that has a similar belief system. I've done research but I feel like I've pulled things from different beliefs to make my own. I apologize if this is a ramble I just need to get my thoughts out.