Why did you decide to quit smoking?

I’m 27f and I’m on my 7th day of cold turkey quitting, because quitting gradually just didn’t work…

Reason 1: I have to say I only smoked when I drank (or so I thought at first), this meant that I started to drink more often and seek out other opportunities to go out a find correct environment for a cig, to justify having a cig, like to have a cuppa coffee at a local bar, which then would end up with a pint, which would lead to chain smoking… so I ended up spending 3-4 nights a week drinking, I’d go to pub at 5pm and the rest of the evening:night would be gone, only 2-3 pints would get me tipsy cuz I’m light weight and then I’d feel hangover the next day and waste half a day feeling a bit unwell (which could do cuz I’m self employed). FYI I have no addiction to alcohol, I purely would do it to justify social smoking.

Reason 2: I am paranoid about my health, I had wheezing in my lungs for a year. My grandad never smoked in his life and sadly passed away from lung cancer which makes me really paranoid. I am on a pill, and smoking on a pill increases risk of blood clots times and times.

Reason 3: I felt so pity for myself, I hated feeling groggy, wasting my days either being hangover and groggy or craving looking forward to going out. Like I was loosing control of life to this object, this paper/plant stick, what on earthy?! Im a human with a brain and my life is going down hill due to this little paper stick?!

Anyways I’m struggling… I fucking love smoking, and I hate it too, I love the ritual how relaxing it is , I love sitting bitching with my friend Bridget jones style and chain smoking, but also it’s ruining my life… I guess I would’ve been okay if I just smoked without having to link it to drinking or “correct situation/environment” for smoking, but then I’d have way higher anxiety about health…

Share your stories and reasons why you decided to quit?

I feel like being able to relate to other people or even hearing other people’s stories would really help me through this…