How embarrassing is findom?

I feel like in terms of level of embarrassing, being into findom, especially online is like one of the lowest kinks. I can’t imagine my friends or family finding this shit out, that I like to be bullied by strange women online and send them money. I’ll tell them (if they ask) that yeah I like feet or that I’m more of a sub, but this is another level. Part of what makes it so appealing to me 😂