Last Chance with Rinvoq - So Scared of Surgery

Hello Frens,

I have had bad bleeding UC for two years now and I've tried entyvio, humira, and remicade. My doctor wants me to give remicade another month or two. It's bee 13 weeks. Next infusion is next week.

I just keep thinking about this failing and then trying rinvoq and it failing. I have so much to deal with (OCD, ADHD, PDD, tinnitus, chronic dry eye, debt, parents decline, back problems, etc.) and while I'd be fine with a j-pouch, I don't want to deal with an ostomy. I don't think I could. I think I'd end it. I feel unworthy and broken all the time and to be reminded of that and not have a partner to support me and feel like I'll never get one. I guess I just want some encouragement so I can maybe begin to let that part of my brain know that if it comes to that there are those out there that make it work and live happily with a partner.