I'm so drunk. My girlfriend is in the other room, asleep. I just messaged my ex.

I love you, Chas. I've always loved you. If you respond to me, right now, I would leave everything I've built to be with you. I would destroy everything to be with you. If you don't, or if you don't want me, I'll join the army or some shit maybe I'll die, maybe I'll make something of myself. I don't care you are my life. You are my life Chas. I would give anything for you. anything at all. I love you please hear me. Please tell me my prayers reach you. I love you more than the moon loves the sun. I love you more than anything. Just saying your names brings me peace. Bring me to you, God.

I love you Chas. I love you.