Sick and tired….

I was in my bedroom and I suddenly heard a bunch of yelling downstairs so I assumed it was just my family arguing as usual until I turned my music down and realized it was just my grandmother yelling emotionally to herself about how “I’m so evil” over and over and slamming things because I decided to distance myself and chronically struggle with depression which she’s aware of. I’m so tired of this weird, toxic behavior from my family and have been apartment searching because I can’t do this anymore. It’s draining when you’re trying to minimize the emotional abuse as much as possible by distancing or simply having a depressive episode and it makes your family’s blood boil. There have been plenty of times where I’d be minding my own business and would witness sudden anger from a family member and them being offended by me not giving them attention when all I’ve been shown is disrespect and abuse. I’m trying so hard to survive and stay afloat.