don’t end like me

i am 17 years old going on 18 in a couple months no real boyfriend so i know im not pretty. i struggle everyday to get out of bed to go to school where it feels like im being humiliated for my looks. i have no friends in school i haven’t found a person who wants to date me just guys that asked for my number and a short amount of talking time in stages . just having people play with you and i dont know why i haven’t been in a long relationship or why anyone wants me because nobody ever stays so i must be ugly and just talked to when bored. i feel so ugly everyday getting out of bed going to school with no confidence. i have nobody who cares about me or to talk to at all. im probably gonna die this way with no friends or relationship. i pray to make friends and i never do . i just want to switch to online school but dont know how to say anything. i pray and pray for people to talk to me. i just hope anyone else doesn’t feel the way i do. not cared about, alone , insecure and ugly. i just want to leave this place or at least leave everyone to show how much they don’t care and hurt me. all i do is want to have friends and to feel loved and pretty. that’s all i ask for and never receive that i honestly don’t see myself living much longer. im gonna die alone with nobody to care about me im just sick of going to somewhere where i feel like this.