Confused about my internship
The internship is 6 months long, but the first month is evaluation period, on the basis of my evaluation I may or may not get the internship and the first month is unpaid. So 2 weeks ago I started this internship , at the start I was excited, but over the weeks I felt miserable. I am not getting any proper feedback. I don't mind if the employer doesn't like my work if it means I need to improve my work, I will happily make the changes as many times as possible. That's why today, I have specifically asked, “Could you please give me feedback based on what's working for you and what's not.” Today I had to create a design and asked to let me know what's working and what's not. So for the 2nd variation, I'll make the necessary changes. The employer told me I was using the design principles wrong and sent me a link to Canva tutorials. When I asked to elaborate on what you don't like, he said look at the tutorials, and you'll understand, honestly I am so exhausted mentally. Last week I sent almost 15 design assignments which the employer didn't like when I sent the 'fun, quirky types of designs' he said, were not good for a corporate setting; when I sent a minimal look, he said they were very basic and anyone can do it when I asked for what they want he says 'use your creativity'. I honestly feel exhausted at this sentence because I keep asking what he wants, and he keeps saying use your creativity, but when I use my creativity he doesn't like it. By the end of the last week, the quality of my work had drastically gone bad. We got on a call he said I needed to improve my work and time management (which I agreed) but he kept saying you need to figure out your process. I told him about my process about how I make sketches then start the designing, he said you need to create designs in 5 minutes.… I feel like anything I do or say is wrong. I know I am just a beginner, so there is plenty of room for me to improve, but how can improve, if I don't know what and in which area I need improvement in? I am honestly thinking of applying to other internships. I know I need to have some resilience if I need to survive in this industry, but I am getting a feeling like this person doesn't want me to continue. I was hired by someone else because they liked my illustration style and portfolio, so that's why I was excited to join this internship.
It's my 3rd week and I already feel like I can't do this any more. Do you guys think I'm giving up too easily?