Doubting if I should stay or leave Islam?

Hello everyone!

For the past months I have been struggling with Islam and religion itself. There are so much things I doubt about in Islam but also things that I admire. The thing is I just want the freedom to do things. I just can't leave Islam because I have a strict family and I even have an imam in my family. I really wanna leave Islam. But if I do, I can't enjoy it because of the people around me are all MUSLIMS.

My question is what were the good things that happened to you, your surroundings etc when leaving Islam. Tell me how it feels to drink, eat certain things, have an relationship etc!