No Kids in this "system"

I have been really sad lately about one of the many things that the organization has taken from me. And that is having children. It was pounded into my brain over and over since I was a child to put Jehovah 1st, pioneer, do all you can do, children get in the way, you can have kids in the new system... so of course that is what I did. And my siblings did.

Then my husband and I woke up and we didn't have kids for a different reason. We didn't want to raise kids like we were raised as witnesses. Now we are finally out and in our early 40s and I can't have kids.

More than this, I will never even be an Aunt. None of my or my husband's siblings have children either. I started thinking about all of my past friends and couples our age in our congregation and in nearby congregations, and hardly any of them, in their late 30s, early 40s, have kids either. An overwhelming amount don't have them. It seemed like as we were leaving that younger couples in their 20s were starting to have kids now.

I live on the East coast of the US. Is it like this where you guys live? Have you experienced something similar?