Completely detached from reality

I'm writing this but It doesn't feel like it's coming from "me", I feel soulless, some sort of an abstraction, I feel I exist at some level but not here, there's some trace of a me somewhere, I constantly question if I'm really alive or maybe I died and this is like a weird surreal place where I'm being punished.

Even though I don't feel real, ironically I feel like I'm the only one who's real, it's so weird I can't find the words to describe it. Even the voice in my head that supposed to be me feels like is someone else helping narrate my life.

And time feels so weird, when I look back at my past it feels like it didn't happend yet, like anything that I experienced so far is a dream and I'm waiting for my real life to start. The present moment is constantly running away and I can't catch myself in it.

Sorry if this sounds like a bunch of gibberish, I'm just trying to figure out wtf is going on with me.