Are hookups worth it?

Im a virgin guy, I want love really bad lol

Ive met a few girls who offered me, you know, s word. Such as a girl i met at work, who we were like best friends, and i liked her, but more like a little sibling, but she started acting odd, sitting on my lap, and kissing me, and told me itd be fun to "mess around", but ive never done anything like that before, id tell her, and shed say "i know and thats why its fun" but turned out, she had a bf, and also im... not good at this stuff. Idk how to do anything. Idk how to escalate, idk how to... do the s word ya know?

Another girl i met on tinder, she got s wordal very fast, I offered to go out on a date and she just said i should come to her place for fun. Said we can do it more if "it was good" and I told her I never done anything like that before, then she seemed even more eager, which was so weird as someone who sucks at online dating, but I kinda started ignoring her because S word scares me.

Is s word normal? Is this a hookup? Is it ok to do?

Sometimes i look back and think maybe i should have, but then i think no, cause ive never been that intimate with a girl, and id probably get attached and maybe they dont like that.

Another girl on tinder did something similar, but she also kept complaining about her ex, and told me how he was a.... uhhhh not a good guy. And tbh the fact she dated this nutjob made me think she was also crazy, so i ignored her too.

Anyway, are hookups worth it? Do you not catch feelings from them?