I 24m hooked up with 49 year old woman

Takes me some courage to share this one because I feel a bit shitty about it but here we go:

I (24m) accidentally swiped right on a much older woman. This was last year so it happened when I was 23, not that it matters much.

Anyway, I swiped right headlessly on her profile and we matched. Here’s the important part:

I’m on Tinder for my foot fetish and I’m curious to meet girls who are into it. I have a good sex life away from dating sites with old flings from school, ex gfs, etc. So Tinder is on my phone specifically to explore my foot fetish if I find a girl who’s willing. I’ve dated older women before, but I mean older by like 5-6 years. This was different.

I said f*** it maybe she has nice feet and I sure as hell don’t mind mature feet. I was forward in my approach and told her I enjoyed feet which she didn’t seem to mind. I told her if her feet are pretty maybe we can make FeetFinder profile and try to make some money for her. She sent me two pics and she had some actually nice feet.

I was actually pretty surprised because she is a nurse- yet her feet seemed to be relatively well kept and maintained. I told her they are nice and we should meet to create emails and accounts to try this FeetFinder thing. I was not interested in her romantically whatsoever. Not that she was a bad time or anything, but obviously the fact that she was double my age played a factor.

Anyway the feet pictures she sent got me excited to see her so she agreed that I would go over her house on Friday night. She said she’s nervous in real life so she might drink a bit and I said that’s no problem I won’t keep you nervous. I got there and there she was, obviously been drinking but not belligerent or anything. I declined having a drink because I really just wasn’t in the mood for it. I jumped straight to the feet topic and straight to business, set her up with a new email, made an Instagram for awareness, and created FeetFinder.

Important: while I made the accounts she was telling me about her son and showed me pictures. It was a bit awkward because he’s right around age and I’d actually seen him in school a few times.

I won’t go into detail about her feet because I know I’m not in the foot fetish sub lol, but as a foot fetishist, they were great- very attractive. After I set up the accounts, I gave her a foot rub and told her that things will start to move and maybe we can even sell some pics by tomorrow.

She liked the idea of earning money and she started to get touchy. It didn’t make me uncomfortable or anything, but I genuinely wasn’t even remotely attracted to any part of her except her feet. She wasn’t even necessarily ugly, it’s the knowledge that she’s a divorced mom with a son my age that didn’t sit right with me.

However I kinda saw it as a transaction, she wanted to hook up with a young guy and I wanted to see how far we can go with the FeetFinder thing, while kinda enjoying her feet myself. When she noticed I wasn’t initiating, she seemed to pull back a bit and regain some awareness. I felt kinda bad that she’d gotten all drunk and ready for sex and since I’ve been blue balled before, I didn’t want to do her the same way.

So I kissed her. Touched her a bit and made out. Then she took her shirt off so I took mine off. She guided me to her bedroom and we both got naked. She instantly got into doggy position on her bed and I put it in and fucked her for a few minutes- I was barely hard because of what I mentioned previously. She was very horny and rocking her body back and forth against my dick. Mid stroke, I started to feel really guilty. I did know her son and I’ve encountered him multiple times and something about fucking his mom didn’t feel right.

I took my dick out, laid her on her stomach and fingered her until she came because it felt wrong to fuck her. She was very vocal and legs were shaking when she came. It was a relief to finally stop and get dressed. She told me she came twice.

Things had spiraled out of control and I did not plan on having any sexual relations with this woman. It probably would’ve been okay to if I didn’t know of her son. I felt dirty leaving her house. I texted her the next day normally to not bum her out, but I didn’t want much to do with her anymore even though she didn’t do anything wrong. I projected my own guilt on her and slowly stopped texting her. Deleted the accounts and emails too.

We were both very discreet about what we’re doing and were on the same page about keeping it all a secret. So we’re good there, but the way we left off was weird. I also hope she didn’t take offense to my sudden disinterest. I feel like I should be a man and apologize, but I also think that maybe she forgot about it and it’s better to not remind her. She told me she had a great night but I still feel pretty guilty about her son.