Pursue sports or environment and education

So I’ve been about this heavily but not until this morning it was really hitting me so hard. To be honest I don’t know if D1 will come my way. I am at the level, and I would love to go to a D1 school for soccer, but I don’t know if it will happen. I have a few offers, NAIA, D3, D2 coaches to talk to, but nothing really yet D1.

Recently with all the admissions and preparing for it, all I’ve been thinking about is making a really good school for my education because I have amazing grades and extras. But at the same time, my younger self has always wanted to pursue soccer. I still would love so much to play soccer, but is it worth to go to a smaller school, or risk my education to have all that fun? I would love to go to let’s say Harvard, UPenn, for amazing education experience, or Stanford, or go to my family’s UT Austin with some nepotism, or have fun in A&M, or Georgia, OU, big fun unis. I’m so undecided I feel scared sometimes. I fear that whatever I choose, I would have wished to choose the other. A fear of missing out no matter what I choose. But soccer again, playing with new friends having all these amazing guys, traveling, being well known for your school, having success there. But not playing at the level I want?

I just need to hear from other people that’s all I guess, I’m just kind of scared I guess. Thank you guys.