Tired of being bald

Its growing but i look like Sid from Toy Story right now. So its not as bad as a few months ago but ughhhhhhh. & my ankles,knees & hips hurt like hell all the time now. & i started getting pains in my cancer titty now that i started radiation. I asked them about it & they said it had nothing to do with radiation but like… it wasnt hurting before & thats the only difference now. But sure. Lol. I’m over iiiittttt. &&& now that im 2ish months out from my lumpectomy & my boobs have settled, ive noticed my bad boob has sagged and looks way different. Im larger chested so i didnt think the lumpectomy would make much of a difference & i guess it hadnt. But to me i see the difference & i hate it. So now thats something else im self conscious about 🙂🙂🙂🙂 But anyway.. rant over. Thank u lol.