Childhood trauma and bisexuality

TW: childhood sexual assault

This post is going to be fucked, but I don't know how else to ask this. Does anyone feel pain and internalized homophobia from being molested?

Even though I believe sexuality is not a choice, it's something we're born with, I regularly think about my molestation and my bisexuality. Anytime I have thoughts of men (I'm male) it can be very triggering to the time I was abused as a young child and I wonder if that experience played a part in my sexuality. I hate the thought not of being bisexual but of my abuser having that big an impact on me and I don't know I don't think I'm explaining it the best. Does anyone else get feelings like this?