Anyone adopt after loss?

I post on here a lot. Y'all are the only ones who understand.

Has anyone adopted after a loss? I'm so scared of another pregnancy but I want a child to raise so bad. It feels so soon after losing Owen, but it occupies my mind. Owen made me a mama but now I have no baby to raise. Adoption is so expensive but would prevent the heartbreak of another loss. Owen was 30 weeks with igur and I had severe eclampsia.

I worry another pregnancy will be like this. I can't lose another baby. It has been so hard losing Owen. He was so precious to me and I was so proud. Ioved him so much. I never want to replace him. I want to raise a baby, though. I have that love and longing in my heart now.

I feel old since I'm 33 and my husband is 37. I didn't want kids until recently. We got together not long ago and have been through a lot. Neither of us have hang ups about adoption but I know it's expensive and still mentally hard. I don't know, do any of y'all have any thoughts? I just can't lose another baby.