I need advice

I definitely know what I'm aroace and don't want a relationship neither a kid. But sometimes I like reading romance stories and get excited about when like the main characters get together and like you see one if them flirting and you get excited because you know that the pair you wanted to get together is going to happen. But when u think of something like that happening to me I feel repulsed and/or weirded out about it. And yet listening to songs about romance/sex I don't care as long as it sounds good I don't care. Am I missing something? Am I still aroace?