I hate filling out performance reviews.Do I remember my major accomplishment over the past 12 months? Of course not.

Tuesday I met with my boss and she gave me my performance review to look over and provide feedback.

There is a section for job specific performance expectations, company competencies, work styles and major achievements.

It makes me uncomfortable to basically brag about myself because I just worry the other person will disagree how I view myself. I'm preemptively feeling rejection.

I told myself last year I would carefully document the trainings I took, the skills I advanced, the .milestones I hit etc so I could use that as evidence for a promotion and performance evaluation. I started one page and then never did any follow tnrough even I was very hyped at how much this would help future me.

So now I'm going through my calendar day by day to remember what I did the past 12 months. I don't feel like I hit any major milestones. Honestly I was just trying to make it through and not quit from a burnout mental health spiral.

My projects are multi-year projects so their timeline of when I did things all blends together. Working memory is not great. I of course can't find copies of my performance years from last two years so I dont know what I said. I'm waiting on Hr to share them if they kept them.

I know I haven't done enough to convince them to promote me a level up. I had such big plans and I didn't follow through like usual.

I'm struggling to regulate my emotions and am stuck on bad thoughts about myself. It does not help that I learned last week my boss is leaving. I have no idea who my new boss will be and how they might change my priorities.

Hot mess over here.