Did anyone else go back after rape?

The first time I was intimate with him I didn’t go all the way but I realised afterwards that it wasn’t what I was comfortable with and I wasn’t ready. He was my first anything so I spoke to him and told him my boundaries. I saw him again and he coerced me into some things I’d said I didn’t want to do then forcefully penetrated me

I left him and he came back to me. But I asked him to do those things I wasn’t comfortable with. And I’m just so confused