I hate my mom.

she makes me feel like i talk way too much, which has made me have a fear of speking out, and made me less confident and lowered my self esteem. Asked a question? Shut up. Asked for context? Shut up. Asked for clarification? Shut up. I never get a chance to talk or explain my point. It's always "shut up, I'm older and I know what's best for you. Don't question me." It makes me so frustrated. If she does something that makes me uncomfortable/I'm not okay with, I can't speak up. Why? She will invalidate my thoughts and feelings and make me seem childish. "Why are you angry over me going through your journal? You're so childish. Are you hiding something from me? Don't you trust me? You better thank God I didn't take that phone, I would've found worse things." -Said my mom, after she went through my vent journal. The worst part, she always pulls the religion card. "Our prophet says Heaven is under the mothers feet" "If you don't obey me you go to Hell" "Don't you love God? Then why not listen to me?" Like no, mom, don't go through my stuff, just ask me first, don't compare me to my cousins, don't force me to do things i don't wanna do, then guilt trip me if I hesitate. She makes me feel very insecure, she used to ask me to "eat less" as a child (9-10), mind you, I wasn't even overweight. She also makes fun of my curly hair, calling me "tarazan" and "unfemenine" , which I got from her, Except she puts protein and hair treatments to get it to be straight. Like what?? I just can't stand her at all. Am I right for hating her? I need reassurance because I've always been told I'm sensitive and can't take jokes.