If you were sexually assaulted as a child, does it have any connection to a porn addiction?

When I was a child, about 7 years old, I was occasionally sexually assaulted by a family member who was a teenager at the time. Let's name them River. I recently started to ponder about these times and wondered what type of effect did it have on me and my ever lasting addiction.

One day, I told River about something strange I saw my parents doing. I asked River because my parents wouldn't tell me about anything sexual. I suppose River thought that, because I was child, they could take advantage of the situation, and so River proceeded to ask me to show them on their body what I saw my parents doing. From then on, River told me that it was just fun and that we should do it(oral sex) every time we visited each other and not tell anyone because it's a secret even parents keep.

So, because I was fucking Daft! Clueless! Naive! Dense! Thick! Moronic! etc., also because River did it to me also, so that it seemed 'fair' in my eyes, and also that it felt good, I thought it was normal. This carried on for some time, until it got to a point where River wanted more and tried to have penetrative sex.

At that time, I was about 8 or 9 and had started to learn about sex through some sex scenes on television and from a couple of porn videos River showed me. I think because of that, I got scared and I luckily had the sense to think that this was off, so I stopped everything. River still tried to make me do it after that day but I refused every time and that ended the assault. I think River thought I would forget because I was a child and yet, I remember everything and we act like nothing happened at family gatherings.

However, even though it ended, my body and mind never forget how strangely satisfying it was to watch porn and how pleasurable, even though wrong, the oral sex was. From then, I actually went out of my way to look for sex scenes in movies and look for porn but I didnt have any device on me at that time. Not until I was 12 and figured out how to use my parents computer and other devices. Since that day, it's just been an influx of all sorts of sexual content without any sign of stoppage.

There was a period in my teenage years where I stopped because I started dating and was practicing religious ceremonies, but after a few months, I would get that itch again and would continue where I got off. To my credit, I never allowed myself to get too distracted, everything was always measured and I didn't allow other aspects of my life to get affected. That's to my knowledge anyway, cause I have no way of knowing how much of an influence it did have on my life.

Even though at times, I did gain anxiety and contributed to my being anti social even though I don't mind going out and meeting people to do certain activities. Now as an adult, I'm able to manage such problematic instances.

I just can't help but wonder though, what would have been if I had never gone down that route. I know every path has its problems but yeah...I don't know if it was me that created and fueled the addicted or did it stem from the assault.

Apologies for the long post, it's actually the first time I've ever spoke of this.