Holidays

Lots of posts here about holidays. I imagine it's hit us all hard this week. It's going to get harder for a while. People can seem insensitive as they do their regular holiday prep (like we all used to do).

My thoughts about the people that seem insensitive right now: I'd never encountered suicide in real life before. It was just an abstract thing to me. So I'd feel bad when I heard about it, it was always outside of anyone I really knew. I kinda figured it was just death and moved on. It's so not just death, as we are all now aware. But until it happens to you, you just don't know. I try to remember how I looked at it before, and remember that the people who haven't encountered it personally also don't get it. And even though it's hard, I try to cut them some slack. That was me not very long ago. What I wouldn't give to go back.

Anyway, remember to be nice to yourself. Remember there are people that love you and depend on you and now that you know what you know, you'd never knowingly inflict this pain on someone else. Whatever you need to do to get through this time is okay (I mean, no murdering the happy holiday people, stick to legal activities that won't ultimately make you feel worse). We are all probably having similar thoughts about the happy jerks. Those thoughts are understandable. We were all the happy jerks once, right? This holiday season will pass and you aren't alone in the way you feel.