I’m saying goodbye to her today…

I don’t even know where to begin. My soul dog, the love of my life, is crossing the rainbow bridge today. She’s got a brain tumor. She had 5 seizures in a 48 hour period. Small ones thank god, she bounced back and recovered quick. I think she’s letting me know now is the time, but she’s making it easier so I don’t have to see her suffer like the other really bad seizure she had around 5 months ago before I knew this was a brain tumor. She’s 9 years old, the goofiest, most amazing and gorgeous dog in the world. I just need support. I have anywhere between 4-5 more hours with her and I’m fucking paralyzed.

I’m trying to be strong for her. I’ll be with her until the very end. I wouldn’t miss it for the world. She’s my baby girl. Saw me thru most of my 20s. The doctor is coming to my house so my family can gather around her, hold her, pet her in the sunshine while he gently lays her to rest. Guys I can’t even fathom this. Literally cannot imagine her not in my life. I feel so sick. I can eat or drink water. I’m trying but yesterday I barely finished a cup. I love her so much. I’d take care of her for the rest of my life if I could. I love her. Just send me love please guys, this is the hardest thing in the world.