Lost my soul dog at a very young age

My beloved puppy passed at only 9 months old unexpectedly and we don’t know the cause. I’m struggling so much with it, I’m really depressed and I don’t even know how to deal with his passing. It’s not fair what happened to him, he deserved so much more time, he was a sweetheart to everyone he met he really didn’t have one flaw.

He had a special bond with me that he didn’t have with anyone else, he would nuzzle his face into mine to sleep or sleep with his neck stretched over mine. He was very affectionate with others but not to this level.

It’s so many emotions, it’s horrible what happened to him and it wasn’t an easy death, im sad for what he had to go through, I’m sad he’s gone and miss him, I’m sad he didn’t have more time on this earth, I’m sad we didn’t have more time together.

He visited me in a dream the morning I was going to pick up his ashes, it was so unlike other dreams. He really cared about me and he knew that was going to be a difficult day for me. I just miss him so much, the whole thing is so traumatic and I don’t even know where to go from here :(