Vent - Over the Missed Opportunities in my Life

Dear all, (apologies for making it a bit long)

I recently got to know about this Sub & now am writing this with a hope that Brethren🫂 of mine from this sub would understand me somehow.

Here I am, a 26M🙋🏻‍♂️, from the very beginning, I have been an Introvert and always have had limited Social Circle, since I always have been Above Average in my Academics, My traditional parents too never cared about my Limited Social Interactions with others.

I spent most of my life till I was 25 by focusing on my academics, Career, Watching Horror and thriller movies and Playing Video Games in my Free time.

Within that time, Forget about love❤️🙋🏻‍♀️ and I didn't even bother to expand my Social Circle (of Male Friends🙋🏻‍♂️🙋🏻‍♂️🙋🏻‍♂️🙋🏻‍♂️) either.

After spending 2 years in Hyderabad for my first job & crossing the silver jubilee of my life, I eventually started to absorb some Extroverted Attributes within me and gradually metamorphosized myself into an Ambivert.

And out of nowhere, I suddenly got an intense craving for some meaningful Human to Human Connections, both PLATONIC💛 & ROMANTIC❤️ as I started to feel a VOID🫥 within my Heart, something which I never felt throughout my past 25 years of my life.

Although People around me often see me with a Neutral to Positive pov and complemented me for my above average looks (ain't bragging🙇🏻‍♂️) especially for my Fairer Skintone & lean & tall structure (which I never cared due to my Introverted nature),

Now, as a Changed Person, Whenever I try to revive my existing connections and form new ones, I feel like I am starting from the scratch or square one & get insecure over witnessing the already established connections of others.

As I feel like a sheer LOSER & regret over all the MISSED OPPORTUNITIES in my life to form adequate human to human connections & make memories.

I have started to dread "IS IT TOO LATE FOR ME TO HAVE A NEW BEGINNING ?!!!!"

Would love to have a talk & know anyone else's perspective ✨!