Last hope, prolly the last chance to get a good college

Another "failed" dropper here. Did around 40 50% of syllabus , that too with v less practice. Got tomorrow's morning shift. Expecting nothing. 85%tile above aajaye toh koi excuse bana lunga par usse kam aye toh pata nhi. Last year toh 77 aye they , usbaar bhi exam ke 3 din pehle padhne baitha tha and issbaar 2 weeks(improvement ig hahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahah)

Cried ifo my mom last week, told i cant even score 100 . She still has a disappointed look but kinda consoling me, ki koi nhi ,nhi hua toh ghar ke paas wala college hai na chale jana, udhar se bhi XYZ bhaiya 15 lac ka package uthaye hain etc etc. She prolly told my dad, he hasnt talked w me since that day , idk, i mean it is what it is ig. Mummy papa toh maan lenge kuch din baad, but idk how ill stay with myself.

Kal jitna bhi aata karke aunga.

Last 2 mahine hai, ab either 97%tile + ayega, ya mera mediocre college life. Again kuch nhi rakh raha commitment main, bohot rakha hai pure saal aur pura saal chala bhi gaya. Mujhe apna future dikhne laga hai thora bohot agar nahi kar paya toh.

Hoping for the best, Jai Bajrangbali. Asha karta hun woh naiya paar karwa de.