First time colposcopy ??

I am 34 years old. Last October I was assaulted. Then in November I got a normal pap but Hr HPV positive (not 16,18, or 45). This November I received a normal pap again but still HPV positive. I know this isn’t necessarily from the assault as it could’ve been dormant in my body from any sexual encounter. But it feels like a silent reminder of the assault to me since I was negative a year prior to it and positive a month after it. What should I do, expect, etc for the colpo to keep myself from spiraling? I need some positivity right now.