advice…

reminiscing on my ex and my heart is literally hurting and aching… i feel like he’s late to his own arrival. he should’ve came back by now🙁 did everything we do together really not mean shit? did i really not affect him that much to even ask if i’m doing okay? i can’t get myself to text him so i texted his friend ( he does not tell my ex ) and i ask if he’s alright and he doesn’t even know. he talks to nobody. i guess it isn’t personal but god i miss him so much. i feel like i’m just existing until he comes back.