Day 6 (Starting To Feel Sensitive)

Ruins: 2 Edges: Unknown (I like teasing and the edging really only happens when I get lost in the pleasure. When I force edges I ruin because I just squeeze the cum out with 0 orgasm feelings) Orgasms: 0

So I have to be honest. I am not a particularly sensitive person and I don’t cum easily. Which is one of the reasons that edging is so exciting to me!

I want to become a sensitive, dripping, begging mess that humps and begs and cockwarms with my cock leaking and throbbing.

This all hit me kind of out of nowhere a few weeks ago. It started with wanting to explore edging again. Then learning about gooning. Getting really sick and spending 72 hours straight just teasing and edging and ruining.

I did some Hypnos during this while high af, and I ended up completely reevaluating my relationship with sex, and with orgasms. I don’t want to cum again. The only reasons I want to cum are because my gf wants it, or if I need a release because my mentals are getting messed up and I’m losing track of real life.

This morning I was teasing myself while edging in my gf’s bed while she was at work. I started feeling so much more sensitive and needy than I usually do. And I just focused on the sensitivity and neediness and I just started edging and it was so insane feeling. At one point I started shaking I was holding back an intense edge with a reverse kegel.

Denial is opening me up to new things, and make importantly is slowly turning me into the needy mess I want to be. Still haven’t woken up humping the air though, which is unfortunate.

I’m visiting my family and introducing my gf for the first time which I’m so excited about. Do you all think I should cum before all of this so I’m clear headed, or do you think I should deny through new years and go into next year a desperate mess?