Was classified as "in remission" as of today. TW: numbers

Physician classified me as "in remission" as of today because of my current weight and muscle mass status and... Oh boy.

I've gained weight clearly, since I was in forced recovery but, I really fucking hate how I look. My body used to be pretty and now I feel like a blob. When this physician first saw me back in 2020 i was at my lowest at95 lbs and I am now currently at 135 even though i still just do OMAD and however much black coffee i feel like having.

yeah, that.

I am mad at myself and all I wanna do is try and get my body back. Granted, I am not 18 anymore... but
I want my old body back.