Feeling so sad this morning

Just wanted to vent. It has been about 2 months since my stbx wife and I split. An hour ago I dropped my son at daycare for the first time since... he's starting 3rd grade.

Walking back to my car I felt so alone. I feel alone all the time. Hell, for the past while I felt alone in my marriage. But now I've got no one in my corner.

And in addition to this recent personal tragedy, I've got ongoing health concerns. As well my place of work is very far from where I'm staying. I spend so much time stuck in traffic. It's a lot... every day is a struggle.

Now I'm at my tedious desk job trying not to cry, this morning. Some days are better than others but so far today is a rough one. I didn't want the separation but long term it might be for the best. But for right now it feels as though my life is over some days. I'm going to try and carry on for my son but sometimes I'm not sure if I'll make it.

I'm not looking for solutions or advice really but any words of hope are welcomed. I just wanted to vent and commiserate with those who'd understand or feel similarly.

I hope things get a bit better soon. I feel truly awful some days. I feel like I'm not entirely alive these days. Like I don't entirely exist if that makes sense. These are some of the coldest darkest times I've known. If you are struggling with something similar my heart goes out to you. Love to you all. I hope we make it.