HUGE Anxiety around C Section - need to hear your experience

I am mortified of giving birth and want to opt for an elective c section to minimize my trauma (I have a huge phobia of giving birth and think this would allow the least amount of trauma for me.) I have however read horrible things online about the C Section surgery and healing process. My main concerns are the following:

- Fundal massage after c section.... how awful and painful is it? how do they manage this with the incision site?

- pain management

- incision healing.... how fast does it heal? how awful does it feel? how awful is sitting up and walking? Will I really not be able to do anything for over a month?

- how common are complications?

This would be for my first pregnancy. There's no way in hell I will have a natural birth so please don't suggest. Just want to hear peoples experiences to hopefully know what to expect.