Write me something…

Hello everyone, I am writing this to get something out off my chest and I need someone to knock my sense regarding my Faith.

You see, I am experiencing a lot of things right now and I blame God. To the point that I have notes in my phone like a diary on how much I hate Him for doing this to me.

My mother is religious and I’m not. I do believe in God, but I thank Him whenever something good happend and then I blame him whenever bad thing happens. Is that the reason why im experiencing this?

I don’t want to blame Him because I know I did this to myself. It’s just that I am experiencing day by day, hour by hour of negative things. There’s so much happening that I really can’t take it anymore. It feels like God is punishing me.

I’m not sure if this is the right subreddit and I just joined today. Can you write me something? I don’t want to hate God but I am losing hope…