Worship with intrusive/crazy thoughts?

I wholeheartedly believe in Jesus Christ, but every time I try to praise or worship at church, I struggle with intrusive thoughts. I catch myself wondering, Are people watching me? Do they see me lifting my hands?—not because I want them to, but because my mind makes it seem like I do, even though I don’t think that’s truly my heart’s intention. And if I do lift my hands, I immediately start questioning myself: Am I just doing this for attention? Do I really mean it, or am I just trying to be seen? It’s a constant battle in my mind. I genuinely want to worship the Lord with a pure heart, not for show or to impress anyone. But these thoughts keep creeping in, making me second-guess myself, and I don’t know why. Because of this, I struggle to fully engage in worship. It keeps me from experiencing the emotional intimacy with God that I long for. Instead of feeling deeply connected, I get stuck in my own head, unable to truly let go and just be in His presence. Has anyone else experienced this?

EdIT*** I go to a nondenominational church, and it’s not about whether or not I raise my hands—I’m not ashamed to do that. The struggle is with the thoughts that rush into my mind when I do. It’s like this intrusive voice saying, You're only doing this for show. You just want people to see you worshipping. But that’s not my heart’s intention at all. I genuinely want to praise the Lord, not put on a performance. Yet, these thoughts make me feel like a Pharisee—like I’m outwardly displaying worship while questioning whether my heart is truly in the right place. I don’t want to be someone who looks holy but isn’t truly worshipping from a pure place. I just want my worship to be real and focused on God. Does that make sense?