Can he forgive me?

Hi guys can you help me on how to get forgiveness from god? Maybe you can hear that i am somewhat "new" (idk??) and i feel really disappointed about my sins and kind of hate myself or at least dislike myself for my sins and can't imagine how god can be that forgiving for somebody that sinfull. I think or at least hope that i became better in terms of sinning over the last few months but i more and more discover on how sinfull i am. How can somebody be THAT forgiving? Pls help me on how to ask for forgiveness, hopefully get forgiven and how to become better.