DAE have their friends as their fp?

Having an fp again is an awful experience. I’ve had a close friend for months who i met is just like me- doesn’t have many friends, doesn’t talk to many people, alone all day. We bonded over that and became incredibly close. Recently though he admitted he wanted to branch out and make new friends, and over the past few days it’s been incredibly hard watching him interact with a new friend group and it makes me question if he will leave me for other people, as my last 2 close friends did. It feels like history is repeating itself at this point. I feel so selfish but I absolutely hate watching my friend make new friends like this, it makes me want to bash my head against a wall and commit suicide at times simply because I want him to talk to only me. If he doesn’t reach out to me or text me in a few hours it sends me into a depression. Having a friend as an fp is the most exhausting thing in the universe, and i’m right back in the same place as i was 3 years ago.

If there are people on this subreddit who struggle with the exact thing, I want to know i’m not alone. I feel so awful for being upset that my friend is making friends. I should be happy for him but it makes me want to die. I’m an awful person