AITAH for saying that my family sucks and is verbally and emotionally abusive ?
This is a long one. I’m (F22) the youngest in a family of 6, my parents (F62 & M64), my three sisters (all in their 40s) and me. I can’t stand being around my family since I can remember, they’ve always been rude and mean to me justifying it by saying that I’m too young to understand anything and that therefore, my opinion doesn’t matter, even when it’s about things regarding my own life. When I was 13 and started high school my parents sent me to private school, my sisters were not happy about it because they went to public school all of their lives, but my parents had enough income for me to attend private at the time because they were older, they clearly weren’t in the same place they were when my sisters were kids. One of them stated multiple times that I should go to the one they attended, which btw had clearly went down in education quality during those 20 years that passed between than attending and my teen years. Also when I was 17 and applied for college (state college) they said i should not be given the chance to attend the college I went to, because my parents didn’t allow them to go where they wanted and instead sent them to our local one. Anyway, I’ve always been called ungrateful and selfish, by everyone and since I can remember (8-9 yrs old). I mean ok, maybe I grew up to be those things but can a child actually be that bad of a person??? I’m actually asking. The bomb has gone off multiple times since I was a teen. They are very gossipy and criticize a lot, everyone, at the table we are always talking abut the absent. Last week, one of my sisters asked me to babysit her dogs but I couldn’t stay because I had work, so I just went and fed them. Long story short, I made this horrible mistake that involved one my sisters dog getting killed by the other dogs she owns 😔😔😔😔. When I found out I wasn’t home, so I called my mom crying and she said to shut up because she had already had it with mi sister and that she was not made of stone, that she couldn’t handle it, and I get it, but she was so rude and almost yelled at me. Fast forward to this weekend, I was upstairs because i didn’t want to hear a thing about all the chit chat about something that hasn’t let me sleep, but in my parents house you can hear everything bc of the paper thin walls, and they were talking about how my sister has fucked up her life by rescuing so many dogs that she can barely afford food for herself (which is true), and they were just getting started about me and I knew I shouldn’t say anything but I just screamed that I was done listening to them talking about me as if I were not home, and that we were all fucked up, not just my other sister or not just me. My youngest sister screamed back at the top of her lungs that I was a stupid ungrateful bitch, that I had to stop playing dumb and wake the fuck up. I yelled back and you know, then both my sisters started crying saying how bad I wHas and that I was shit and this and that. I don’t care what they say about me, it’s been the same my whole life, they can’t bring anything new out. Then I spent like half an hour overhearing how eager they were to punch me and stuff like that, I can’t believe my sisters are such fuckups, they all owe my parents a lot of money and one of them even lives with a non physically but very active abusive and alcoholic, whom she had kids with and is also an addict, the other one had to put a second mortgage on her house because of debt in her credit card but IM the one that is stupid?? Are they hypocrites and are just projecting their failures on me? Am I the asshole? I’m actually asking (My older sister, the one with the dogs, didn’t come to the house that day, she wasn’t present)