what would happen if you didn't have ADHD?

if I didn't have ADHD I would be able to focus in class and actually remember everything that was taught to me even when watching an important lecture from YouTube I wouldn't rewind 10 times , I would get high grades and in sports I wouldn't always be lazy all the time and would actually put effort into interacting with my teammates and would excel in sports, I would be more organised , my room wouldn't be messy, i wouldn't screw up relationships with friends and be lonely , especially my short memory loss wouldn't occur at all maybe at a few times where it's normal to have some short memory loss, basically that's the life I always wanted but if god is real he is responsible for making my life miserable